by The Kingpin » Wed Aug 03, 2016 1:14 am
"What about Draxon? I tried to impose values on them that were not their own, I even helped someone who shared my values become king... And all that did was breed unrest and instability among its ranks... And that ended up bringing the entire kingdom to its knees. Most of it is too dangerous for travellers now. Monsters roaming the countryside... Bandits and thieves, highwaymen, all manner of threats prowl the kingdom's territory because of my mistakes," stated Septimus, uncomfortable.
"Draxon was crumbling long before you stepped in, brother," came another voice. Deeper, rougher, metallic. The Scholar looked down, spotting, of all things, Desrium, standing amidst the coral. Of course, it was not actually Desrium. Like Syria, his eyes were not his own. In place of red jewels, blue, sapphire orbs, somewhere between those of his Mana Infused State and the Scholar's own glowing gaze, stared up at him.
"It was because Draxon was crumbling that you intervened. Draco killed his father and usurped the throne. That was the first thing to go wrong, and something you had no hand in. Draco sided with an archdemon and had most of his forces decimated, weakening the security of all the cities in the kingdom as a result; another thing you had no hand in. Draco committed suicide out of guilt, leaving the kingdom without an heir; yet another thing. Immanis sought to rule; the 'Executioner'. His cruelty was storied. His reaction to you was just another example of what was to become of Draxon's elvish populace. Your intervention was your first step to becoming a Justicar. You did what was right."
"What was right got people killed. Many of them. Far too many," responded the Scholar. "Was it really right then?
"Right and wrong is never black and white. Anything anyone does will have consequences. But those deaths were not a consequence of your actions. Do you not think that Immanis's cruelty would have caused many deaths? Or even a revolt which would ultimately bring about the same result? Draxon's fall was inevitable. It was not because of your actions. It was in spite of them."
The Scholar didn't know what to think. This figure before him both did and did not sound like Desrium. And it was a part of his mind. For a being that had spent much of the past two years observing all the ways in which Desrium both differed from and emulated the sapient races of Aster, the realisation that a part of his mind was quite literally emulating the former Champion came as a shock.
"Interesting that I see you as Desrium," commented the Scholar, relenting from the train of their conversation, admitting that there was truth to what the figure had said.
"I am as you made me. I am Desrium... because that is what Desrium embodies to you," stated the figure.
It made sense. Desrium would be the image used to represent such a... resolute attitude. The real Desrium was very much that, in a word. Resolute. Stalwart. He was the embodiment of the will to overcome any obstacle, and incidentally, he was the reason behind many of the Scholar's decisions. Taking him along on his journeys, choosing to go to Tyrbenetus... taking on the mantle of Justicar formally... While his own will to better himself, to transcend his own boundaries, was a great motivator for his actions, the will to stand beside and support Desrium, the closest thing to a brother he had, was no small part of it. And perhaps most importantly of all, he was arguably the most important figure in his life outside of his family. Even Syria, dear to him as she was, and Beshayir too, were not so close to him as the Stalwart.
"He is not simply an ideal. You should know this," stated Will.
"I do," responded Septimus.
"And yet you perceive him to be perfect. The perfect figure of will and motivation. If you did not, I would not be as I am. Am I mistaken?" inquired the figure.
"No...But am I wrong to think that he is what you describe him to be?"
"Yes." The answer was instantaneous.
"How so? I have never once seen Desrium hesitate," retorted the Scholar.
"Oh, but you have. Many times. Think back. You should remember at least one occasion. After all, you commented on it," stated Will in a tone that seemed, for the briefest of moments, to have a smugness to it more befitting Arashi than Desrium.
And he was right. The Scholar did remember. It was a very vivid memory. Geysers that filled the sky with colour, a forest that he later learned was mana-touched, magical leaves and fruit taking on new colours and properties he and Desrium had not lingered to see, though they very nearly had, if not for Desrium's uncertainty, torn between staying to learn more of the environment and departing to learn what had caused those very geysers to erupt.
"That's right. Just one of many times he has wavered. The truth is, you and he are not unalike. Unintentional though it may be, what you told him during your earliest meeting was very true. You truly are 'fate's reflection' of one another. Down to the concerns you hold," explained Will.
Septimus stared, his head tilting, seemingly lost. He wasn't sure how his psyche worked, but clearly he was observing things he had not actually observed. Or was this how his mind processed newly observed details in older experiences recorded by his so-called 'perfect memory'? A way of re-analysing what he saw before, finding knowledge he had not seen prior? Perhaps this, more than any magical power, was the true strength of the Hueilin...
"Consider, for example, your current concerns. What angers you most? At this moment in time?"
"Morrelie," responded the Scholar almost the moment Desri-... Will, stopped speaking.
"Why?"
... Why? "What do you mean, 'Why'? After all she's done... All she wants to do?"
"What is that, exactly?"
"To kill Desrium," responded Septimus.
"Exactly. You are angry because Morrelie wants to kill Desrium. Because despite everything he's done, despite how far he's come, he is still being hunted. And do you remember how Desrium responded to your statements insisting on helping him against her? Or anything else that was his concern but not yours?"
"He asked me not to."
"He hates the fact that you are, willingly or otherwise, imposed upon by the troubles he faces. That every time he faces an obstacle and you are present, you step in at the expense of your own peace, to try and remove it," explained Will.
"How does that make us alike?"
"You hate that he is suffering undeserved troubles, and he hates that you are suffering undeserved troubles. Be they truly yours or simply those you take up as your own." stated Will in a monotone that sounded very much like Desrium's.
"Ah yes, organised chaos. the sign of a clever but ever-busy mind. To the perpetrator, a carefully woven web of belongings and intrigue, but to the bystander? Madness!"
–William Beckett, Lore of Leyuna RPG