by C S » Sun Jun 12, 2016 9:15 pm
With Andruil well on his way, Cleotaire focused on Desrium. "So, a city. Trying to unite a broken kingdom. Trying to protect Aster one movement at a time. You've done well for yourself in only a few months."
"But you know my troubles as well," Desrium replied. "Will your test involve Morrelie? Or will you test me on how I handle Melok and --"
"My my, very conflicted," Cleotaire responded. "I offer no answers for your outstanding dilemmas. Only an assurance that you are strong enough to face them," she told him.“I sensed within that blade of yours a power unlike any other I have encountered, Desrium. I could not glean from my ability what its true potential was. Naturally, at my age, such a thing worried me. To know that something like that existed, and there was no way to tell if it was a threat or not.”
Cleotaire leaned forward and pointed a finger at the warrior in the dark shell.
“At the same time, I saw something within you. Far deeper than the superficial forces that brought you into existence, or the experiences you’ve been through since. You were never able to manifest a soul of your own, but the one you’ve bonded to is true and stalwart.”
“I suppose that is why she followed Liorick to the bitter end,” Desrium responded. He was not sure how to take these words.
He was one of many identities, but when it came to the subject of his soul, it wasn’t exactly him at that point. The boundary was very distinct, according to Desrium’s understanding of things. He had all of the great mage’s knowledge tucked within his mind, and only his impressions of the spirit now bound to his very being. Who she was as her own person was something Desrium had accepted, since Ithra’s time, that he would never know.
“That is where you are wrong. You have been wrong for centuries, Desrium,” The Life Bringer stated. She sensed the confusion he was unable to show and continued, “Liorick gave you an image of self to take and knowledge that you could not use. Aderalia gave you sustenance, but more than that, she has been responsible for the caliber of your character. Any other born into a world such as this in the way that you were would have been consumed by it, floundering blindly into the cruelty you have endured, twisted and corrupted.”
“The Blood Omen --”
“A manifestation of rage. A temper tantrum if you were any mortal child. Grief and anger remained where your thoughts and broken memories once were. Tragic and regrettable, yet the simple fact of the matter. Could you see yourself being like... Eredar himself? Or perhaps a member of the legion wiped from Tyrbenetus? Deliberate in your malice?”
Desrium thought, then said, “Eredar... there was a time when I did not heed the call to act against him. It was only the danger presented to Septimus, Syria and Jiier that persuaded me.”
“And when promised power in his army, even with the temptation of vengeance, you refused. That was no accident. Without your memories of Zuppoland, of your promise, you still chose to refuse.”
Desrium was quiet. Could Aderalia possibly still be alive? More than just a soul in a shell?
“She lives in you, Desrium. Her will is yours, and her will has been your greatest strength. More than your speed, more than how much you can move with however little ease, more than your inability to tire and feel pain. And that is why I trusted you to carry this unknowable power. In truth, I fully believed I would never see you again.”
“Septimus offered his friendship to you. I believed that we would see each other again because of that, though I could not have known it would be like this. Septimus is uncanny in that way.”
“Quite.”
