by Hopeflower » Sat Nov 12, 2016 1:44 am
By the time they were nearing the library, Vix and Arsenic had settled back into a familiar pattern of friendly bickering.
"I'm not saying you have to get a tattoo, I'm just asking what you'd get if you wanted one."
'You say that like I don't know you.'
"What, you think I'd drag you to get something you don't want?"
He sighed, rolled his eyes, and deadpanned, 'The most sickeningly cute thing you can imagine.'
That, of course, had Vix freezing in place for a second before she burst out laughing at whatever image she'd conjured up. He endured it with an impressively straight face until she seemed to calm, then buried her face in her hands to muffle a fresh wave of giggles. At which point, his stoic mask cracked and his shoulders shook with a quiet laugh of his own.
And then Vix sighed and her shoulders slumped, and Arsenic's features smoothed out again as he sensed a turn in her mood. The distraction of conversation only lasted so long, they both knew all too well. I feel bad for her, Vix admitted. Natalie. She's really on her own here, isn't she?
Arsenic stuck his hands in the pockets of his coat and drew his shoulders up a little. To the casual observer, he was warding off the chill that was starting to reach for his bones. To Vix, it looked like he was struggling with something he didn't want to say, but couldn't think of a gentler way to phrase. Yeah, he finally agreed. You'll do your best because that's what you do - Vix's lips twitched into a faint smile - but I think she is.
Vix worried her lip with her teeth. How are you supposed to comfort someone who doesn't remember attempting murder? How do you help them keep going? Should you even want to? The questions were coming in a flood across the link, and Arsenic could only throw up the weakest of shields to avoid being overwhelmed without shutting her out.
I don't know about amnesia, he said almost tentatively, after a little consideration, but in a way, she's not all that different from you or I. We're both guilty of taking lives. And we both had to figure out how to put ourselves back together, once.
Yeah, but, Vix started to protest automatically, then stopped herself. But we had something to work with. She doesn't really have anything. No past, not really - no goal...
Arsenic glanced at her. That's something she's going to have to figure out, he reminded her quietly. Like we did - do, he corrected, because he himself was still struggling with that one. You can only help someone so much before they have to start taking steps on their own.
I don't know if I have enough time to help her figure out what her first step should be, Vix replied, and her distress seeped through the connection. How do you know when you've done enough?
To that, he didn't have a very good answer. Because with Vix, it had just been a knowing. The sense that the innkeeper was coming out of her shell, was taking steps without encouragement, was making her own decisions. Had grown into her new life. It's different for everyone, I suppose, he replied slowly, but I guess it comes down to when they realize they're ready to move forward on their own.
"Gotta have a little sadness once in a while so you know when the good times come."
"Talent is a pursued interest. In other words, anything that you're willing to practice, you can do." ~ Bob Ross
"The future is always uncertain and painful but it must be lived." ~ Unknown